A walk to remember

Tuesday, November 29, 2005

so far at pool i have beaten little chris 3 times Big chris 1 time johnathan 1 time and russel 1 time.
i love play pool even though im not that good at it. some days i can be good at it some days im not.

things are going really well at work we've got this 20% off all clothing and each day we've been making £13,000 a day on clothing alone. the 20% thing ends this sunday.

i get paid this friday ;-)

Tuesday, November 08, 2005

Well..... its been awhile

O i beat chris at a game of pool. I've tried for ages to beat him at it and now i have done it yay he he. Poor chris.

i did want to put up a picture but the silly thing won't let me silly poo.

i went to a night club last thursday for the first time it was cool but i did get abit too drunk whoops and this guy wouldn't leave me alone good job i had some male friends there to save me.

Sunday, October 23, 2005

Against All Odds

How can I just let you walk away.
Just let you leave without a trace.
When I stand here taking.
Every breath with you.
You're the only one.
Who really knew me at all.
How can you just walk away from me.
When all I can do is watch you leave.
'Cause we've shared the laughter and the pain
And even shared the tears.
You're the only one
Who really knew me at all.
So take a look at me now.
Oh there's just an empty space.
And there's nothing left here to remind me.
Just the memory of your face.
Take a look at me now.
'Cause there's just an empty space.
And you coming back to me is against all odds.
And that's what I've got to face.
I wish I could just make you turn around.
Turn around and see me cry.
There's so much I need to say to you.
So many reasons why.
You're the only one.
Who really knew me at all.
So take a look at me now.
'Cause there's just an empty space.
And there's nothing left here to remind me.
Just the memory of your face.
Take a look at me now.
'Cause there's just an empty space.
But to wait for you is
All I can do.
And that's what I've got to face.
Take a good look at me now.
'Cause l'll still be standing here.
And you coming back to me is against all odds.
That's the chance I've got to take.
Take a look at me now.

Sunday, October 16, 2005

childhood sweethearts

Today my mum showed me some old post cards from 1980 to 84 from a guy called Phil. Mum and phil got along with each other really well. Phil was mum's sweetheart.

When my mum was 18 she had a op and couldn't go back to work for a while and so she got bored sitting at home so Phil took her out how sweet was that. Phil didn't live near my mum so they kept in touch by writing to each other and seeing each other now and then.

But Phil move to America and it was then that mum realised how much she love him. They didn't stay in touch after feb 1984 because they both married some one else. 21 years on and my mum still has feelings for him. I cried when my mum told me.

Like my mum im shy and i won't tell the guy i have feelings for.

Sunday, October 02, 2005

Long Time

3:30pm Hey blog its been awhile.

3:41 I really don't know what to say.

3:51 I still really like this guy ( can't name him because of a really good reason) but he can't possibly like me back and soon it would be too late because there has to be a point where i have to move on but i don't want to.

4:00pm I can't stop thinking about him and OH my i was staring at him this morning i just couldn't stop myself he just looked so mmmmmmmmmm (a big smile on my face) words could not discribe him. i hope he didn't see me staring at him because he'd think I'm a freak.

4:10 right i think I've said to much.

4:12 Thank you for the cross, Lord
Thank you for the love

4:14 worthy is the Lamb

Saturday, September 17, 2005

Lost diary found

Today I found my old diary (2001) that i lost.

Here is what i put for Sunday 22nd July 2001

Dear Kitty
I'm relly am missing ******** and I won't be able to see him tomorrow because I am not going to school because of my knees. Anyway lets talk about today. Today me and claire washed casper and then gave him a hair cut, then later took him and sam for a walk and when we got back to my house we were all very tied.

Tuesday 31st June 2001

Dear Kitty
last night I had a dream and I don'tknow if it was a good or bad dream because the good part was I saw ******** and the bad part was, I was in a class room with a big round tummy and i was pregnant (scary). When i was awake I was thinking who was the daddy. I tried to remember the part where i was with ******. OK here it is.............. the door opens to this room that looked like a really posh/stylish room (thats where i saw *****) and then he turned around and saw me and looked surprised. I wonder why?


Sunday 9th September 2001

Dear kitty
I can't wait for tomorrow to come because I get to see ********. I've worked out that my best days are wednesday and thursday because I have geography and guess whos in my geography class *******.
Today me and claire took Casper and Sam for a walk two walks. Me, claire, sam and casper went in the steam. when we were about to go I slipped and i cut my knee. whoops.


Wednesday 26th September 2001

Dear Kitty
today was great ******** said hello to me today which made me really happy.
Mum told me when a boy is horrible to you it means that they like you but they don't want to show it so thats why they are horrible. Antony is like that horrible but he talked to me today, maybe he thought he was being to horrible to me and thought he'd give me a break, he usually says things like "you just cry and cry " or " shes twigish" which makes me sad. when I've been hurt by someone at school like when james white punched me in the face or pushed me over ******* is always says hit him back or Sarah are you ok. I think thats so sweet of him.


MAN I've been busy working 11am to 8pm and 1pm to 10pm but wednesdays i work 12 to 8 pm. so i haven't had time to update sorry.

Plus I've had alot on my mind -

  • work - how to keep my job - answer - i prayed about it and work has been better to cope with
  • a guy - i really like this guy - can't ask him out cause i know he would say no and i will look like a FOOL - anyway people keep saying he likes this girl

ANYWAY i had a good time wednesday it was good to be around christians, people i love so much and to hang out with them. i had a very good time thursday, it was my day off and i went into town and spent about £100.

i will try and update more

but right now i need sleep

Monday, August 29, 2005

Random questions 2

you might find out things about me you never knew before.

Have you ever......................
1) laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by ........... yes i watch clouds all the time and try finding shapes in them
2) been skiing .................... no but would like to someday
3) cheated while playing a game..................... yes the game was called cheat so you were ment to
4) been misunderstood ......................... yes all the time
5) Got drunk with a good friend .................... yes lots of times
6) played dress up ................... yes.
7) been lonely .......................... yes lots of times when i have no-one to talk to.
8) watched the sun set ........................... I LOVE SUN SETS they are so beautiful
9) been in a car crash .................. yes two nearly died in the first one well could have and did my back in, in the second one
10) sung karaoke ................... yes did it once and won't do it again
11) danced in the rain .................. yes when i was mucking about once
12) been kissed under a mistletoe .................... sadly no i haven't
13) had a wish come true ...................... no but i prayed for a job for months and then i got one
14) sang in the shower .................. at soul suvivor this year i was singing in the shower and some guy started sing with me then i stoped when bright red and when i was finshed ( and dressed) i ran back to my trent
15) had a dream that you married someone ............... i had a dream once that i married a guy i didn't love and that scared me.
16) screamed at the top of your lungs.................. yes in pain
17) climbed a tree...................... I've been climbing trees since i was a little girl so yes
18) are scared to watch scary movies alone......................... no but i do get scared abit i usually watch them with friends so i can hug them when i get to scared. if i've seen it before i dont get scared.
19) jumped into a pool/lake with all your clothes on................. no but i've jumped in with all my clothes off ( it was a dare)
20) laughed so hard you cried................yes loads of times