A walk to remember

2005-11-29T13:29:00.000Z

so far at pool i have beaten little chris 3 times Big chris 1 time johnathan 1 time and russel 1 time.
i love play pool even though im not that good at it. some days i can be good at it some days im not.

things are going really well at work we've got this 20% off all clothing and each day we've been making £13,000 a day on clothing alone. the 20% thing ends this sunday.

i get paid this friday ;-)

2005-11-08T00:34:00.000Z

Well..... its been awhile

O i beat chris at a game of pool. I've tried for ages to beat him at it and now i have done it yay he he. Poor chris.

i did want to put up a picture but the silly thing won't let me silly poo.

i went to a night club last thursday for the first time it was cool but i did get abit too drunk whoops and this guy wouldn't leave me alone good job i had some male friends there to save me.

Against All Odds

2005-10-23T19:49:00.000+01:00

Against All Odds

How can I just let you walk away.

Just let you leave without a trace.

When I stand here taking.

Every breath with you.

You're the only one.

Who really knew me at all.

How can you just walk away from me.

When all I can do is watch you leave.

'Cause we've shared the laughter and the pain

And even shared the tears.

You're the only one

Who really knew me at all.

So take a look at me now.

Oh there's just an empty space.

And there's nothing left here to remind me.

Just the memory of your face.

Take a look at me now.

'Cause there's just an empty space.

And you coming back to me is against all odds.

And that's what I've got to face.

I wish I could just make you turn around.

Turn around and see me cry.

There's so much I need to say to you.

So many reasons why.

You're the only one.

Who really knew me at all.

So take a look at me now.

'Cause there's just an empty space.

And there's nothing left here to remind me.

Just the memory of your face.

Take a look at me now.

'Cause there's just an empty space.

But to wait for you is

All I can do.

And that's what I've got to face.

Take a good look at me now.

'Cause l'll still be standing here.

And you coming back to me is against all odds.

That's the chance I've got to take.

Take a look at me now.

childhood sweethearts

2005-10-16T22:29:00.000+01:00

Today my mum showed me some old post cards from 1980 to 84 from a guy called Phil. Mum and phil got along with each other really well. Phil was mum's sweetheart.

When my mum was 18 she had a op and couldn't go back to work for a while and so she got bored sitting at home so Phil took her out how sweet was that. Phil didn't live near my mum so they kept in touch by writing to each other and seeing each other now and then.

But Phil move to America and it was then that mum realised how much she love him. They didn't stay in touch after feb 1984 because they both married some one else. 21 years on and my mum still has feelings for him. I cried when my mum told me.

Like my mum im shy and i won't tell the guy i have feelings for.

Long Time

2005-10-02T16:15:00.000+01:00

3:30pm Hey blog its been awhile.

3:41 I really don't know what to say.

3:51 I still really like this guy ( can't name him because of a really good reason) but he can't possibly like me back and soon it would be too late because there has to be a point where i have to move on but i don't want to.

4:00pm I can't stop thinking about him and OH my i was staring at him this morning i just couldn't stop myself he just looked so mmmmmmmmmm (a big smile on my face) words could not discribe him. i hope he didn't see me staring at him because he'd think I'm a freak.

4:10 right i think I've said to much.

4:12 Thank you for the cross, Lord
Thank you for the love

4:14 worthy is the Lamb

Lost diary found

2005-09-17T23:28:00.000+01:00

Today I found my old diary (2001) that i lost.

Here is what i put for Sunday 22nd July 2001

Dear Kitty
I'm relly am missing ******** and I won't be able to see him tomorrow because I am not going to school because of my knees. Anyway lets talk about today. Today me and claire washed casper and then gave him a hair cut, then later took him and sam for a walk and when we got back to my house we were all very tied.
Yours
Sarah

Tuesday 31st June 2001

Dear Kitty
last night I had a dream and I don'tknow if it was a good or bad dream because the good part was I saw ******** and the bad part was, I was in a class room with a big round tummy and i was pregnant (scary). When i was awake I was thinking who was the daddy. I tried to remember the part where i was with ******. OK here it is.............. the door opens to this room that looked like a really posh/stylish room (thats where i saw *****) and then he turned around and saw me and looked surprised. I wonder why?

Yours
sarah

Sunday 9th September 2001

Dear kitty
I can't wait for tomorrow to come because I get to see ********. I've worked out that my best days are wednesday and thursday because I have geography and guess whos in my geography class *******.
Today me and claire took Casper and Sam for a walk two walks. Me, claire, sam and casper went in the steam. when we were about to go I slipped and i cut my knee. whoops.

Yours
Sarah

Wednesday 26th September 2001

Dear Kitty
today was great ******** said hello to me today which made me really happy.
Mum told me when a boy is horrible to you it means that they like you but they don't want to show it so thats why they are horrible. Antony is like that horrible but he talked to me today, maybe he thought he was being to horrible to me and thought he'd give me a break, he usually says things like "you just cry and cry " or " shes twigish" which makes me sad. when I've been hurt by someone at school like when james white punched me in the face or pushed me over ******* is always says hit him back or Sarah are you ok. I think thats so sweet of him.

Yours
Sarah

2005-09-17T00:43:00.000+01:00

MAN I've been busy working 11am to 8pm and 1pm to 10pm but wednesdays i work 12 to 8 pm. so i haven't had time to update sorry.

Plus I've had alot on my mind -

work - how to keep my job - answer - i prayed about it and work has been better to cope with
a guy - i really like this guy - can't ask him out cause i know he would say no and i will look like a FOOL - anyway people keep saying he likes this girl

ANYWAY i had a good time wednesday it was good to be around christians, people i love so much and to hang out with them. i had a very good time thursday, it was my day off and i went into town and spent about £100.

i will try and update more

but right now i need sleep

Random questions 2

2005-08-29T18:58:00.000+01:00

you might find out things about me you never knew before.

Have you ever......................
1) laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by ........... yes i watch clouds all the time and try finding shapes in them
2) been skiing .................... no but would like to someday
3) cheated while playing a game..................... yes the game was called cheat so you were ment to
4) been misunderstood ......................... yes all the time
5) Got drunk with a good friend .................... yes lots of times
6) played dress up ................... yes.
7) been lonely .......................... yes lots of times when i have no-one to talk to.
8) watched the sun set ........................... I LOVE SUN SETS they are so beautiful
9) been in a car crash .................. yes two nearly died in the first one well could have and did my back in, in the second one
10) sung karaoke ................... yes did it once and won't do it again
11) danced in the rain .................. yes when i was mucking about once
12) been kissed under a mistletoe .................... sadly no i haven't
13) had a wish come true ...................... no but i prayed for a job for months and then i got one
14) sang in the shower .................. at soul suvivor this year i was singing in the shower and some guy started sing with me then i stoped when bright red and when i was finshed ( and dressed) i ran back to my trent
15) had a dream that you married someone ............... i had a dream once that i married a guy i didn't love and that scared me.
16) screamed at the top of your lungs.................. yes in pain
17) climbed a tree...................... I've been climbing trees since i was a little girl so yes
18) are scared to watch scary movies alone......................... no but i do get scared abit i usually watch them with friends so i can hug them when i get to scared. if i've seen it before i dont get scared.
19) jumped into a pool/lake with all your clothes on................. no but i've jumped in with all my clothes off ( it was a dare)
20) laughed so hard you cried................yes loads of times

Can males and females be just good friends without one liking the other too much

2005-08-23T22:27:00.000+01:00

Theres this guy at work and we get along with each other really well but im scared he really likes me but i dont like him in that way
what do i do if he asks me out (girlfriend) i dont want to hurt him or lose his friendship

what can i do?

maybe i should talk about the guy i really really like to him

would that hurt him?

2005-08-07T22:12:00.000+01:00

I can't wait to find my Prince and have my fairytale wedding. I want a dress just like this one and it has to be white.

But for me thats a long way off yet Because I've A) got to find the right guy B) We've got to get to know him if I don't already know him C) We've got to have been dating for at least a year before I say yes D) I'm only 18 so I'm young and have 10 years before I have to worry about growing old, single, smell with 20 cats and 1 good old faithful doggy.

I guess when I do meet the right guy I'll know because A) He would be a Christian B) we would both love God more than each other C) we would pray for each other D) we would respect each other E) we would be one

OUR GOD IS AN AWESOME GOD

2005-08-03T23:17:00.000+01:00

WOW
I mean he really is.
Let me tell you a true story. When I was at Holy T school there was this girl called tasha. This girl really did scare me . She was much taller than me (I was way under 5ft) and the things that came out of her mouth were just really vicious, mean, h0rrible words. The things she said to me just terrorize me. But now about 5 years later I see her at the prayer thing. I was just like WOW shes a CHRISTIAN now, I just went straight up to her and gave her a big hug.
I asked Tasha if she wanted to come to church on sunday and she said yes which is so cool.

See God can change the hardest heart.

Isn't he just so cool what an awesome GOD he is.

Ps tasha is way smaller than me now.

The chat I had with my mind

2005-07-26T22:30:00.000+01:00

6am on Tuesday 26th July

Mind - Do you know pigs can fly

Me - No they can't

Yes they can

Pigs can't fly

Yes they can if you put them in a aeroplane

Ha Ha very funny

2 minutes later

Right time to get up

No need more sleep

I'll sing if you don't get up

You can't sing

I can (and starts to sing)

Ok I'm getting up just please stop singing. This is so unfair you kept me up last night.

Oh yeah, what was it we were talking about again

More like moaning because I wouldn't make you some hot chocolate and when I did give in you still went on talking about this and that and I still can't believe I'm talking to myself

Don't talk like that someone will think your crazy

Well talking to you is crazy

Well living in your head is lonely I have to talk to someone

(I sign)

Whats the matter

Nothing

Ok (1 minute pasts) I'll put some music on then cause I'm bored

(I walk over to the CD player and put on Sugababes Three on, track no 10)

" You look into my eyes, I go out of my mind. I can't see anything, 'coz this love got me blind."

Oh, you just had to put this one on didn't you

"I'm going crazy with love for you baby. I can't eat and I can't sleep."

Well you put it on

You told me to put it on

If I told you to jump off a cliff would ya

Look just tell me whats wrong

I don't need to tell ya, you already know whats wrong with me. Your in my head ain't ya

Yeah, but I thought if you talked about it, it might help you feel better

Look I just need some sleep ok

(10 seconds later)

Can I ask you something

Yeah

Can I have some hot chocolate

Do you know I'm not even going to put up a fight coz you always win.

Really I did have this conversation with my mind this morning. Am I going mad?

Thats the way to do it

2005-07-24T18:15:00.000+01:00

well when i meet the right guy and he proposes to me I would like him to do it this way -
He would give me a rose and cook me dinner (it doesn't matter what we eat it could be pizza (um) for all i care) then after dinner we would go for a walk along the beach (maybe there will be a sunset too) and then he would turn to face me look into my eyes and say Sarah ...... (maybe say a poem he has written just for me) would you ....... (puts out the small box and opens it) marry me. then me with tears runnig down my face saying YES. I know what my reaction will be, I'll be crying, I'll be huging him, I'll be thanking GOD, I'll be going mad with happiness.

10 Random Questions

2005-07-12T22:04:00.000+01:00

Your going into space for a year, who would you take with you?
When was the last time you huged a tree?
If you were a superhero what would your name be?
If you could be the opposite sex for a day what would you do?
When was the last time you had a fight with yourself?
If you were a rubber duck where would you be?
4 facts about yourself
Whats your most embarrassing moment?
Naughtest thing you have ever done?
U2 or switchfoot

What a week

2005-07-10T21:21:00.000+01:00

I started my new job the day of the bombing and then the next day i went up to London and on the train up there a bag was left on the train people were freaking out i asked one lady where it was and she said it was in the carriage behind you so me being me i went and had a look, the carriage was emty and there it was between the chairs on the floor THE BAG i have to amit i did freak a bit. But i just went back to my seat and sat there. what comfort me the most was knowing that if i die i would go to heaven to be with God, my father.

I also found out that I've got a half brother called Ryan (my dads son) he is 13 years old the same age as christina.

I also got to see Lee Ryan this week too. What a hunk hey ladies

Prince Casper

2005-07-04T21:19:00.000+01:00

Meet my dog, my best friend Prince Casper (the friendly dog) he is a Cavalier King Charles Spaniel (breed).

When we first got Casper his name was William and for short we called him Will. Because Casper was not trained he kept running off when we opened the door and I went come here willy right in front of friends. So thats why we changed his name.

Poor old Casper has had it bad the first people who paid �300 for him then decided that he was too hairy so they gave him to a friend. Then the cat scratched his eye so they gave him to me cause i wanted him. This was all before his 1st birthday. My dad didn't like Casper and one day when casper ran off my dad got really angry picked him up by his fur and took him inside the house where he then started hitting him. Seeing this with tears rolling down my face i screamed at my dad to stop, he turn towards me and said its the only way he is going to learn, I said no it isn't and don't ever touch my dog again i screamed at him. i then turned to casper who was shaking in the corner with tears in his eyes and gave him a big hug. That day was the first day i standed up to my dad. Now when someone has hurt me or I've hurt myself and I'm crying Casper comes and gives my a hug. We are best mates and always look out for each other.

Would you ever hit a dog for running off? .................................................. I know i wouldn't.

Big Dave

2005-06-30T23:20:00.000+01:00

Well what can i say about big dave
well he is a truly awesome guy. He is wicked to be around, with him your guaranteed to have a laugh.
I'll miss his jokes, his tricks, his bear hugs but most of all his singing.
Dave i hope you will come and visit us and i hope we keep in touch.

(dave i wouldn't look like a hippy)

2005-06-27T21:38:00.000+01:00

me and stina